Adios To All the Drama

So yeah I've made a decision about my love life. I believe you should never play with someones emotions, but the answers aren't always clear. I've had a lot of drama in my life lately. The things that cause drama: friends, guys, school work, relationships, and well just being me. So if anyone reads this i would really love to know if I'm walking straight into a giant mess by dating a family friend. Friend's shouldn't date? Our moms are friends. Our sisters are best friends. They were the ones who wanted us to go out in the first place. I've honestly been considering it for the past year and have now made my decisoin.....Yes.
Here's hoping this won't be a huge mistake.

Clueless? No I think I'm Oblivious

Okay so anyone who reads this knows its about a guy. Know how can a guy not know you like him? How can you not know if a guy likes you? What happens when everyone thinks he's dating your best friend? I've got the ansewer nothing! So I've liked this guy for the past year and a half. He's only known I exist for the past year. Our friends have been trying to set us up for half a year. We have gone out a total of zero time. I hate high school!

Birthday Blues

It's funny how much things can change in a year. Last year at this time all i could really think of was all those exciting thing that people said about sixteen. The truth was that no matter what people say about how great it is getting older there is always a downside. More responsibilities, more sorrows , and less shelter. Life gets harder as you get older whether its when you realize people won't cut you slack because of your age , or your realizing life can cut you done at any age.

The only thing you can do is learn to roll with the punches and wait for the good times to come around again. Better yet it's learning how to create those good times your self and making others see them. The good. It is in everthing if you learn to look for it.

I have had to learn this. There is good in getting lost because it teaches you to see the world around you. You go on an adventure and learn a new way to go. The good in a lost assignment is that though you might get knocked back a step it drives you to work harder to prove that one can overcome a challenge. The good in a lost camera is that it makes you pay closer attention to everything because the only place you can capture it is in you head and in your heart.

The good in a death is harder, but I have found it. The good that came from my father's death is that I have learned that I am strong enough to live for my self and not him. It was realizing though he was my father he had touched many lives, and will still touch more with the memoeries he left behind. The good that one more person is in heaven watching out for us and knowing no matter what he'll be in my every step. Though it isn't enough at times it helps if we remember all the good things because they make life worth living. It's to short to be mad it's to short to hold grudge and it's to short to live in the past.

Life is just long enough to live, to forgive, to love, and to touch others with each of these.

So I will love. I will live. And I will forgive.

Please listen to these songs:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lYQZJ9NUzYU&feature=relmfu

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LpKBMywiEjw

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=igm2iGvo-us&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FlsT61o25Jg&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M-C-IbkuNWs&ob=av3e

I love you Daddy. These were all songs I wanted to either sing for you and Mom or that remind me of you. There my favorites.

Clueless Agian!!

Okay so obviously I'm not the person who is in tune with how other feel about them. My friends toke the liberty to tell me that two different guys have a crush on me in the past two days. y sister also toke the time to spell it out after she read text I'd been getting from another two guys. Now honestly I don't mess around with other's feeling or anything but I think after being one of the guys for so long I just have no clue what its like to have someone interested in you. It isn't even the fact that I'm not good with relationship stuff. I've always been the person giving advice or the shoulder to cry on, but I think its time i take my own advice. Wish me luck

new quizz

I made this quizz uo onine see what you think of it.

Lunch

Okay so at my school every one has a lunch table. People usually pick their table during the first week of school. My table is actually the remnants of my original lunch table from freshmen year. My table has yet to have a normal conversation in all this time. We yesterday's conversation was more on the normal side. It consisted of my friend talking about how love rely doesn't exist until your out of your teens. This rely seemed like a girl conversation, but only the guys at the table were arguing about it. It was rely weird. I mean when did wrestlers start arguing over love.

Memoirs Of A Mutt

I just woke up to a two hour delay and toke a shower. This poem came to me whenI started thinking of all the people I've grown up with over the years and I just wanted to write how I have an answer for them after all this time.

Memoirs Of A Mutt

People always say don't marry outside your race

But to which do I belong?

They say stay to your own side of the tracks

But to which do I belong?

They tell me that it is a lie to claim one thing

For this I have an answer.

Never make me chose

I am America, a melting pot

I am proud to be black

I am pleased to be white

I am Happy to be Native

I am America