So unfair

How just how ?

The Gift's My Father Gave

I might not remember all the presents you brought me, and I'm pretty sure I've lost most of them, but here are somethings you gave me.
Thank you for:
The tennis lesson that taught me the importance of ducking
The cooking lesson that taught me the right meal can brighten anyone's day
Your stubbornness so I will always stand strong in my convection
Your eyes so I can see beauty isn't just skin deep
Your temper that gave me the energy to always argue till they see my point
Your wisdom so I can pause long enough in arguments to see someone else's point
Your love that made me the caring person I am.
Thank you for being not just a dad but a father and for giving me some of the most important gifts I've ever received

Memories

To Daddy:

No matter how much I cling it slowly slips away
And All those vivid colors are fading into gray

That golden gleam is now a red rust
And those snow white pages are coated in dust

The burning brilliance that was you has turned to ash
And that fiery soul has vanished in a flash

That beautiful face has faded with time
But it wasn't so long ago I called you mine

Hard work

So I am currently writing not one but three stories: New-chapter eleven, Koyoto-prologue,The Servant Girl- the prologue first have of chapter one. Then I have to write a script for my theatre class, and poems for the magazine at school. I'm extremely lucky the speech season is over for now, because my grades have taken a nose dive. Hopefully I can pull them back up. By hopefully I mean I will pull them back up. It's either that or not going to prom, and I already have a dress. On the bright side I didn't spend that much on the dress. Only fifteen dollars. So wish me luck.
P.S. If any of you are good at Spanish I could use the help!

State

So the state meet was today. I didn't even make it to the semi-final, but I'm having a great time here. My friends are great! We're having fun just listening to music and hanging out with our coach until the tournament ends.

Expactions

Well today I went to a speech tournament. Now I had very low expatiation when I arrived at the tournament. The only time I have ever placed before had been at a novice meet, and this was varsity sectionals. I tried to have confidence in myself and just do my best. In the end I came in seventh for poetry. That means I get to go to state.

But I enjoyed the meet for several other reasons also. Reason 1: I saw two really good old friends today. One, Kevin I haven't seen since we graduated from eight grade, but somehow he still recognized me from behind. The second friend was my old friend named Joshua. He goes by Josh now. He mistook my friend for me and kind of scared her a bit, but he was really excited to find out I was there. I was surprised he even remembered me, because we haven't seen or spoken to each other since second grade.

Reason 2: All my close friends know about the situation between me and him, so I don't have to hide it anymore.

Reason 3: I have discovered for a fact that one of my "friends" does in fact dislike me. This made me happy, because I thought I was being paranoid. It may sound weird, but I prefer it this way.

Boys

I'm finally happy again, and no it's not because I finally got a date. Lately I've been talking to one of my old friends,yes it's a guy, and he has brought me back to my roots. Growing up all my friends were guys. Freshman years the majority of my friends were guys. Last year most of my friends were girls. Now I'm a junior, and I'm reverting and spending more time with my male friends. And you know what? I haven't been this happy in a long time. So here to boy-friends they can get you to stop worrying about boyfriends.

Not my day

So I love Valentine's Day even though I've never had a boyfriend on it. I've just always loved watching how happy other people are on this day. Well today my day was temporarily ruined when my dog chewed my glasses forcing me to go to school without them. I got over this however. Then my day was officially ruined after school. I was in a great mood until I got a text from that guy. You know the one I'm always writing about. the one who almost three months ago admitted he liked me, but for some reason thought us getting together was a bad idea. He wouldn't tell me why at that point in time, but for some reason he thought today was a good day to tell me. You know why it wasn't a good reason? He likes someone else! Thanks I wish you would have said that three months ago when I asked, instead of waiting till Valentine's Day.

El novio?

So my currant "love interest" happens to be one of my close friends. Agian. Yiu see the problem with this is i really like him and he says he likes me, but he won't date me. Yeah that totally confused me. So I asked him why and he said that even though he has reasons he won't tell me what they are. My friends don't see whats wrong with the picture. I mean according to them were dating subconsciously. I drag him to all the artsy things and in return he has someone to complain to. So what's the issue? The issue is it's almost Valentine's Day and I want to have a valentine for once in my life! For Pete's sake is that too much to ask for?

Long time no write

Lo siento mis amigos. I've been putting all my efforts into passing the 11th grade right-now for some reason it isn't a blow off year. I've really been struggling with Spanish seeing as i skipped a year to earn the right diploma Well i like to work just not as hard as i have been. Hopefully it gets easier, but I'm doubting that. Anyway I have been writing in my spare time so I'll just start posting that up hear. This is were i want your opinions I'm writing both poems and a novel. Which would you prefer? Or would you like to have both just switching which one is posted when? o at the end of every week I'll give an up date on my now drama filled life and one of those two.